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Monday, January 19th, 2004
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10:17 pm - Aber Singh update
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Chapter One of the new children's novel, part one of the Aber Singh Chronicles, is up
here.
current mood:  accomplished
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| Saturday, January 17th, 2004
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11:48 pm - Hello, everyone
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Hi, this is not Chloe. If you have this on your friendslist... Take it off, unless you're interested in sticking around to see what Visqueux is up to.
Visqueux, by the way, is a brand new, completely underground and pretty (currently) functionless publishing company in the works, owned and operated by yours truly. Gretchen.
So... You're welcome to stay, but you won't be seeing any more of your dear friend Chloe here. She sold it to me.
This notice will stay up until February, and then you're gonna start seeing weird stuff on your friends page... Just so you know.
Actually. You'll probably see it sooner than that. But you're warned. So it's all fair.
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| Monday, June 16th, 2003
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2:08 pm
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Visqueux is dead
June.16, 2003
A new chapter begins June.17th... deep breaths please..
current mood:  cold
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| Sunday, June 15th, 2003
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10:30 pm
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oh and PS to you Your so out of touch with me... how DARE you try to know what I'm feeling.
How the fuck could you possiably comprehend what I'm going through?
You have no idea...
You think yelling at me is helping?
All yelling does is make me want to talk to you less. You were the one person I thought wouldn't judge me. I don't need this from you. I feel bad enough just looking in the mirror.
PS . I took 7
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10:19 pm
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tomorrow is monday. you all know what that means.
I can't help it... I'm going crazy without it... I need something more then what you could ever give me
I'm totally falling appart. ripping appart at the seems, if you will..
so its back to this.
I threw up 5 times today.. 5 fucking times. I feel good about some things that happened today.. the presants.. the people.. the what have you... but did anyone hjear me 5 fucking times in the bathroom throwing up? no.. why? Because I wan't really there.
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4:11 am
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now... to start this baby off, I'm like to announce that I'm high outta my mind
right now, so, *ahem*, just hold tight and listen to what happened tonight.
After graduation... I went to Azteca with my mom for din din, and guess what I saw. Only
the most horrific sights known to man. The faculty of Edmonds Woodway.. drunk.. singing
kerioke. Mr. Quin, lead vocals, busting out "Mustang Sally". .. yea.. JIGGA WHAT?
Came home.. wanted beach.. wanted to see russ... so! He picked me up and drove me to a new place.
Picnic Point Beach. ANyways, we parked up on the hill and just stared out the window.
It started by flirty smiles... me turning my head another direction when he began to look
to close into my eyes.. grinning.
We held hands and looked out the sun roof at the stars. I told him he had nice hands.. and he laughed
at me :) His laugh is so adorable.
{filter}
...{more filter} ....
{..even more filter}....
ok, then after all that happened, We smoked a joint while he took me home. I'm talking
FATTY BLUNT. mmmm humm..
feeling good ladies, feeling good.
last but ever so imporant message from MOI for the night:
How do you make a dead baby float?
*thinks*
One can root beer, and three scoops dead baby!!!!
HAHAHAHA...
night all *winks*
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| Saturday, June 14th, 2003
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9:51 pm
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HAPPY GRADUATION!!!!! (although I think the only person from my class that'll read this is Katie Zipper...) But, congrats to you too Aaron and Janna!!!
My shoes were KILLING me so I had to take them off and walk around in my fishnets during the reception. Bobbie came and gamme a hug, which was really nice of her *thanks hun* I saw Candice Houvener, who still seems fake as usual, but I hugged her anyways... for old times sake. Pia, Ryan, Samuel, Jordan, Mom, Grandma, and Aaron came. I tried looking for Aaron.. couldn't find him though. I had mixed feelings about him being there, but, now that its over with, I guess it was a good thing.
We're going to go out to dinner somewhere now... I'm way hungry. I'm totally fiending to go to a beach tonight. Either Marina agin.. or mayyyybeeee just plain ol' Lake Ballanger. Who wants to go with me? If no one calls, I might call Russ... that should be intresting. I saw him tonight. He looked good... I also talked to his dad and step mom who recognized me even thought they just met me like 3 days ago.. lol.
alright I'm going to end this. time to gooooo. lata.
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12:04 pm
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yesterday
Picked up Russ and went to Marina Beach. Climbed around a fench onto the side of the train tracks.. walked along.. talking all the while...
Found a big tunel, walked through it, and, PRESTO! the beach lay in front of us...Threw rocks at ducks.. my favorite pastime... heh. After an hour I finially hit one in the side of its body. Laughed. Then felt kinda bad. Then laughed som're.
Talked... played with sand... smiled a lot.
I'm still a little uneasy aroudn him, but its getting better.
10 rolled around way too fast, and I took him home... as he got out of the car he goes, "ok, so your goiong to go home and call me right"? *sigh*
We talked in bed... he wants to see me before graduation... we might after the big event as well...
I'm thinking this is one of those things that could possiable go somewhere...
PS. The sunset was amazing from Edmonds... Pink and grey...mmmm
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| Thursday, June 12th, 2003
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1:13 am
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see'n how I never make any effort to see anyone... he should consider himself special
I drove to his dad's house, where they were working on his final physic's peoject... I'm not quite shure what they were making.. but it kinda resemboled a table with wheels...I watched for about an hour... he kept giving me "i'm sorry this is taking so long" looks... I talked with hsi step mom about my Italy trip... then we hit the road. We talked in the car about how exciting it is that high school is finially over. He had a bad headache... I was going to take him straight home, because I told my mom I'd be home 30 before. I thought, "fuck it". We drove to Bracketts Landing. Parked. Fucking poliece were parked in the drive area.... walked to the ferry dock... sat on a bench and smoked. Made sexual refrences... laughed at a sleeping bad we found in a hollowed out log, "my god.. is that a bum in there"? ... Drove him to his house by yost pool.. He told me to call him when I got home. .. whats ironic... that he's a lot "cooler" then I remember him being.
silly russ...
night. xoxo
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| Wednesday, June 11th, 2003
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2:14 am
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To the boy...
I know that saying "I'm really going to miss you" is so plain.. so boring.. so expected, but I mean it. I havn't felt how you make me feel in a long time.
You let loose something inside of me that rarely comes out.
I never want this smile to leave my face.
Although I'm sad you're leaving.. I know its not the last I'll see you. ... You and that evil grin of yours :)
as the French say, "Come hither Baby". heh. Anytime...
love me
xoxo
ps. I want a copy of the picture of you and i from tonight.
current mood: Bliss
current music: The cure
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| Monday, June 9th, 2003
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10:20 pm
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so the day went a little something like this..
Slept in until 3.. realized I had missed my window of oppertuninity to have Bobbie cut my
hair.
Also realized Russ was about to get out of school so I need to shower..
Showered and realized I didn't really feel like haning out with him today...
Went to Porsche's concert at Maplewood.
Ate Dinner.
Called Russ who kinda blew me off... can't really blame him though.
Came online.
Starting Singing.
Looked through classes for Fall quarter.
Read Email.
Wrote My friends from Italy.
Drank juice.
nnneeeeddd to take new pics for LJ tongiht, but I need 4 AAA batteries.
xoxo
ps. my Live journal account expires in about 2 months. Be a doll and help a poor girl out.
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2:44 am
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everytime I'm with you, you captivate me. Those eyes... that grin...
*melts* Thank you for a night I shall never forget.
PS. I'm still smiling ...
current mood:  giddy
current music: Bright Eyes
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| Tuesday, June 3rd, 2003
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8:03 pm
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Impressive Tasks for the evening ---- >
Do half of the ethnography, paint my nails black, make new icons for live journal, shave, pack up some belongings, box up moving sale items, call starla, write in my non-online very personal highly private journal, and last but certainly not least, mastrabation
I feel somewhat bad about bailing out on Russ tonight. I also feel bad about not standing up to my boss and quitting (yea, you heard me, I pussed out and said I start working full time starting tomorrow)
new icons tonight. I promiss.
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| Sunday, June 1st, 2003
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7:16 pm
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I cannot put into words what this trip has ment to me. The people I have shared the past 3 months with have really changed my life *especially you Julia!!!* I feel like I've matured a lot, and my perspective on my life is really.. well..more important to me. I was happy to see my family again, but now I'm missing Italy so bad it hurts. I miss the people that are still in Europe, and the ones I left at the airport. I know I will see a lot of them soon.. or sometime in the future, but its still sad. That part of that time is gone now... our journey together is over. *sigh*
excuse me while I go cry my eyes out now.
xoxo
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5:06 pm
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5:05 pm
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| Wednesday, May 28th, 2003
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9:27 am
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From 6:00 tonight till I come home is the "Final Ubar-Fubar Fest".
Wednesday - Compliments of CAPA FREE ALCOHOL, DANCING, DINNER, AND DEBOTCHERY!!!
Thursday - BACARDI, TEQUILA, BECKS, AND ANYTHING ELSE THAT WILL FUCK ME UP
Friday - The Last day in Italy... EVERY LAST DROP OF ALCOHOL WILL BE COMSUMED BY MOI...
*sigh*... I'm drinking all I can here because I wont be able to when I come home.. Plue I have too many other things to be dealing with.
Chances are I wont update again till I get home. HOPEFULLY because I'll be too fubar! *kisses*
XxBr0kEnGirlXx
current mood:  excited
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| Tuesday, May 27th, 2003
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8:59 pm - venting....
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200 euro phone bill
30 euro owed to friends
10 for internet card for school projects
what am I going to do... I'm stressed when I don't need to be stressed. I DON'T need this shit at the end of my trip. I don't want this to leave a bad memory of my Italy experience... Jesus... I tried calling mom... I tried calling dad... nothing. The cell's for rent place has my passport number and I can't leave Saturday without paying... FUCK. I'm am fucked... Why do I do such careless things? I need to learn how to manage my money. As soon as I get home I have a job and can start paying my mom back, but its so hard here in Italy hen I have NO source of income whatsoever. I feel bad about barrowing... this sucks. .... *cries*
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| Monday, May 26th, 2003
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8:43 am - nothing
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I'm worried that i wont be ok when i get home... this has been good for me, really.. its just that I want assurence that I will be ok.. A lot of things arn't working for me right now... A lot of things are on the verge of breaking... Hold me.. love me... don't go away, even when I push you away... the most important thing to remember is that I'm not ok... not even when I say 100 times that I am ok... I'm never ok... They say in time it will go away.. its wont. I feel it getting stronger... I feel mayself getting more obsessed... I can't break it. Its hard to do on my own... I don't want it to affect anyone else and so I keep it all inside.
once again, too much was said.
This is going to be one sad week... *sniff *sniff..
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| Sunday, May 25th, 2003
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2:11 pm
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its happening either thursday or friday night
... the rolling and a bit of the what have you../
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